Today, to be frank, was just bullshit. [link]

I don't know if it's just me being paranoid, or this is really happening, but 2 of my teachers have made it their life's(lives?) mission to try and stop me from getting a decent mark on anything.

One of my Bio teachers decided that since everyone in my group had either been sick(puking and fever) or in the hospital for the majority of the week this week (excluding me) that she was going to dock marks off of our project because she had to give us an extention until monday, 'cause today was the only day all three of us had been at school this week. So now illness is my fault, cause I got MY part done, and therefore I should have apparently done the rest of the project, which was meant to be done by three people.

I've worked really hard in this class so far dispite being away four days because of the flu. Which, if i may add, was also a source of quite a lot of suffering because I missed all the review days for the first test, and the day of the test, got back, and had to complete the test next day. I studied, the wrong stuff, and consiquently failed the first test. This teacher knows this, gave my my interm which said 54%, and still has the fucking nerve to knock off marks from this project even though it wasn't my (or my group's) fault, because I'm not a psycic, and cannot look into the fucking future.

My intro to Spanish teacher... Let's just say that everytime she gets the chance she tries to not include projects that she's obviously seen, and has marked, for reasons I'm not yet sure about. She's also super hard on me, picks on me in class, corrects minor issues that she doesn't for everyone else, and has the nerve to criticize the way I have chosen to take my classes. Shall I elaborate? OK.

TWICE NOW, she's left stuff that I've handed in out of my marks. She tried to tell me I didn't do the assigned work, and that it was too short anyways in front of the whole class to try and hide her mistakes. If my friend Ryu hadn't of argued with her back and fourth for 4 times I wouldn't have gotten my marks. I DID hand in that sheet, she put a check mark on it and handed it back. Said nothing. Just gave it back. She tried to pin the whole, 'you were supposed to put that in the hand in box' shit with me. She didn't tell me that. She didn't say anything, just handed me my fucking paper. Then she gives me an interm with an NHI because SHE didn't tell me to put it in the box. I DID do the assigned half a page of work and she DID look at it. That was yesterday.

Today, we were talking about the incident yesterday right before we went to class. I walk in and you know what that bitch does? 'Did you do your oral component yesterday?'
Sonja's thoughts: "Fuck you."
Sonja says, maybe a little forcefully: "Yes. I went up with Ryu." (bites back putting the word bitch at the end of the sentence.)
Yeah, we had the second longest preformance you bitch. You gave a mark to Ryu, and not me. I was ready to punch her in the face. Then she asks why I'm not participating. Oh, maybe because you won't give me marks for it anyways?

She also made a big deal about Ryu and I taking intro to Spanish in gr 12 so that we could go to university. 'you should have chosen your courses better.'

ISN'T IT BETTER THAT WE ARE COVERING OUR ASSES NOW, RATHER THEN JUST ROLLING WITH IT. I DIDN'T HAVE ROOM IN MY TIMETABLE LAST YEAR FOR A LANGUAGE. She just kept going on and on like she NEVER made any mistakes in highschool and we were the fucking retards. At least we don't discriminate against certain people.

Does this sound like the teachers are against me????!!!!!!

If that's not enough, after school, I went to the doctor and she prescribed me 'the pill' to regulate my 'cycles' and help generally in my pain etc... AND MY BROTHER PROLLY DOESN'T EVEN HAVE PINK EYE!

So rough day... We get home (I'm bitching about my teachers the whole way back) and we get a phone call from the dress shop that has the order for my grad dress. They want to cancel my order for MY dress, so another girl can have that material. They want to sell ME the FLOOR MODEL which is small on me, and has probably been worn more then a regular grad dress really will.

So I have to get it tailored, I don't get a new dress, and I feel fucking disposible. Like oh, she can deal with a used dress. This is the ONE new thing that I've ever gotten over 100 dollars that I haven't had to help pay for, the one thing I get for grad AND YOU WANT TO GIVE ME THE TOO SMALL FLOOR MODEL! David Wong, I was so excited about getting my dress. It sounds so shrewdy, but... I never feel pretty, I'm fat guys. I can't even wear fucking regular t-shirts, and I could FIT in this dress... I felt prettty damn good in this thing... and now I get the cardboard box of dresses when everyone else gets one custom made in fucking China. I could cry, but I don't cry, and that's really shallow, and I'm TOO FUCKING MAD.

Could be Karma, I found out I got 90% on my English 12 Provincial.

I need to invest in a punching bag... Really. So I have to study for another Bio test and get my 'dress' tailored tomorrow.

I'm off to go try and write a novel and not kill anyone. Please, if you guys have anything to make me smile, or fucking... positive to say... do so? I need something to smile about before I take the head off something or someone. Hopefully a teacher nicknamed chupacabra [link] .

[link] Jesus Christ it's me. I'M AS MAD AS HELL AND I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS ANYMORE. XD