Just thought I'd wish everyone a Merry Christmas, and luck in the New Year. It's the snowiest Christmas on record here, we have at least a meter of snow on the ground. Which is cool. I love snow. XD

So yeah, I did one painting for a present, and I've got a cool picture to post. I quite like the painting, it's a small one this time, I can't really afford a huge canvas at the moment. Although, my aunt has commished me a HUGE 100X80 canvas that she's dropped off, so that should be a challenge. I can't wait to start that one. lol.

Writing's alright, I've been trying to finish all my unfinished oneshots, and it's been really tough. I'm not finished yet, but hopefully by the newyear I'll have at least a few done. My novel is still being plotted out.

I've got school in the newyear, and I'm terribly nervous about it, but it's better then sitting around. -sigh- I gotta say, it's been a really rough year this year, the first half was amazing! I finished highschool. Which was amazing, it was rough too, cause I was taking a lot of challenging courses, but I had a real blast celebrating. Grad was alright, the grad vaycay was amazing, and then we went camping!! Omg! that was awesome, we got rained out halfway through, and we still managed to have an awesome time, burning all our homework, patching the tarps, booting Tara's old van around the country with a freaking mouse inside, night walks, little chocolate fuckers, thunderstorms, cuteie guitar playing guy, getting stuck at Safeway, the whole head on thing, ANND watching my potato obsessed friend fail at making instant potatoes.

Then I had a family vaycay, with thunderstorms every day, lots of travelling, cabins, and a kick ass convo about tattooing bald people's bald spots with funny things and scaring the shit out of the people in a Greek restaraunt.

After that things kind of went down hill. I got home and started looking for a job. and looked, and looked and looked, for 3 fucking months, with people around me getting jobs in 3 weeks. I was soooo depressed by then end of it, I was in tears. It was shit.

Then I got a job. A job that wasn't bad, I didn't mind it too much, and I worked hard at learning the ropes for 3 weeks before working my first 5.5 hour shift and getting called to the back, where they told me I was fired. Well fuck them. They said I wasn't friendly enough, that I was learning too slow and they didn't want me around for Christmas. They didn't train me, they didn't cut me some slack, it was my first job, and they didn't want slow workers, but hell, they kept hiring people. WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO PUT ON MY RESUME?? Shouldn't they have given me a couple months before even considering letting me go??? Like seriously, what do they expect from a first time worker? I learned everything, but gift cards in the first week, and then the bitch I worked mornings with got me fired.

I don't use the term bitch lightly. She left me with a laundry list of orders to go talk to people in the back. So I was supposed to clean, organize the shelves, help the giant line of customers ordering like 5 loaves each (slicer only takes 2-4 at a time, especially if they are still hot.) and do all the money calculations. Then she got pissed if that wasn't finished. No fucking wonder I made some mistakes. She didn't use the sanitary wax paper to pick up bread, she wouldn't let me just work on my own, and she'd get terribly frusterated if I needed help. I apologised on my second last day, and she told me not to. I shouldn't have said shit, and the next day, she was terribly pleasent to me, before she went home, and I got fired.

So yeah, I was back to having no job. At this point we were like 3 weeks from christmas, so no one was hiring, cause they didn't want to have to train people during the rush. I was stuck again, I was hella depressed again, and good fucking god, I fail at life. I'm going to school in Jan. I have no money, but I want to check the course load before getting a job. I'm fucked. But I gots a big party to go to on New Years and I'm SOOO excited. ^^D

Anyways, yeah, the last half of the year has been frusterating, but I wouldn't trade this year. I'm so thankful for my friends and family. Hopefully the new year will get better. I'll be 19 in Feb, I'll be taking all the classes I've been wanting to take, English, Creative Writing, and intro to Drawing.

So I'd like to take this oppertunity to thank everyone in my life for the love and support, and wish them all the best in the new year. I'd like to apologise for being a depressed asshole, sorry guys. Whatever challenges I face in the newyear I'll try and face them better, hopefully it's as good a year as this last one.

Peace
BSF